Finding an outlet for the emotions can be difficult in times of solitude. It can be even more difficult when you've forgotten that you need to. It's a battle familiar to lots of people, especially ones who are recovering from addictions. The key is to remember the problem, and never forget, when every ounce of neural matter is trying to relax into the lower energy state of forgetting. Vigilance is the hardest thing to maintain when the natural human state is complacency. We must struggle to remember, and in my case it was 'The West Wing' that reminded me.
So, if you remember to let out your emotions - and that is hard - then what to do to actually express them? On this particular occasion, given that I had forgotten and gotten a bit fogged up, it was 'The West Wing' ('Inauguration: Over There') and not air conducting or that one magnificent episode of 'Due South' that was 'Letting Go', or Henry Blake's last episode on 'M*A*S*H'. It's strange how some people need levers to work their outlets, although I am quite good naturally on the old happiness front. Incidentally, let's all sing on Aberystwyth beach, if you happen to be around this week. So, anyway, on to more acceptable topics.
There's only one week of lecturing left, and then effective unemployment once again. How bizarre that it's gone on so long but feels so short. It's also strange that my techniques have gone against the obvious best methods for teaching mathematics. It's hard to 'write and wipe' when you only have a whiteboard in one theatre. That would have been so much better than making up all those slides in LaTeX! (Don't look up LaTeX, as it's dull.) Whiteboards/blackboards more fun for the students watching too. Next time, if there is a next time, it will be markers and chalk for the whole thing even if stuck with a slightly loathsome electronic whiteboard. Electronic whiteboards are too small, and rather fiddly but good in principal.
This post is meandering like a river in Central Europe; It's probably something to do with the season. True to form, I'm splitting my attention with something audio-visual, in this case 'Sherlock: The Reichenbach Fall'. The second season of 'Sherlock' was strange; It began with a wonderful, stupendous Moffat episode before subsiding a little into forcedness. I suspect that Sherlock's abrasiveness was deliberately and unnaturally upgraded to make the season arc more graceful but that that upgrade rather grates on my nerves, and of course the second episode 'The Hounds of Baskerville' was personally a bit rubbish. That's the way of things in the wide world of everyone being different. Maybe those last two episodes of 'Sherlock' also suffer from being a bit lacking in fun too. Fun is important in these things. But Molly is tremendous; I adore Molly. Someone bring Lou Brealey to me now please. 'The Reichenbach Fall' is such a mixed experience, but it's better than I remember.
This thing is coming out in wild squirts to one side and another. Random bursts of content splashing all over the place, and all apparently disconnected. Although a theme is emerging; one of forced traits and techniques. How strange.
Apparently the mad squirts have stopped for now. More shall follow soon, and stories galore...
O.
PS Best add 'Doctor Who: The Pandorica Opens / The Big Bang' to the great tv shows list:
> Doctor Who: 'The Pandorica Opens / The Big Bang'
> Due South: 'Letting Go'
> M*A*S*H: 'Abyssinia, Henry'
> The West Wing: 'Noel'
PPS I know 'forcedness' isn't a word, but what is the word needed?
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